Ch01.Blog05 My story
Whether it’s fitness, health, design, fashion or the arts, inspiration is the key to motivation.
Inspiration comes from what we know, what we see, and what wakes curiosity inside of us. It drives us to want to do something, be something, and to make something of ourselves.
Sounds pretty simple doesn’t it?
But what if these same factors caused you to doubt your own creativity?
I’ve been there.
I want to share a little about my journey and how I sometimes find it overwhelming. There are times when I feel that my dreams are too big and there is no point in trying.
I spend time challenging my own creativeness, my own confidence, my voice and habits. Struggling to believe that I am enough.
I used to feel so alone in this big scary industry. I was delving into a very deep pool of talented, beautiful actors where all my insecurities, flaws and issues would be on display. It seemed to be the scariest step imaginable.
Fear can restrict us in so many ways.
When I hear a song, see an image, watch a movie or read something truly moving I feel connected with it instantly. But then the feeling of doubt can creep in, as if I’ve failed already because I haven’t created anything spectacular. Yet.
“You are You, this is truer than true, there is no one alive that is youer than you”. Dr Seuss.
I know deep down that in order to achieve I need to be brave and try things, and that failing is just a part of life.
I’ve learnt there is no way to grow unless we fail. Unless we learn about ourselves. Unless we really listen to our own voice and those around us.
I have to continue to remind myself of this everyday. It has taken a long time for me to reach this point and to feel okay about it, too. It was like I had lost the passion inside me to create. I had become a pit of nothingness, for myself, and for those around me.
In fact, my biggest hurdle was myself.
How did I overcome this?
We will continue this discussion in my next post.
In the meantime:
We all start somewhere.
For too long I have been pressuring myself and comparing myself to everyone else around me instead of focusing on what I’m doing right here right now. No time limit, no unnecessary pressure, no one else to deter me from being me. Since finding this focus, things have been better and my confidence to create is growing.
So, as long as you keep creating from what you know and learning more about yourself and others as you go along, then you are on the right path, and that path belongs to you.
“Why fit in when you were born to stand out?” Dr Suess