I initially planned on writing about how we stop ourselves from doing the things we know we should do. Then I suddenly became aware of the resistance I was feeling towards it!
I find I fight myself so frequently – resisting doing the things that need to be done, resisting taking the small action steps that lead to the bigger actions and long term goal achieving. Why do we resist doing the things we enjoy (and the things that must be done) – especially when we are artists? Getting those headshots, writing those cover letters, making that lists of agents, going to that class, learning lines, blah blah blah.
Then I noticed a different resistance in myself.
I resist going to the theatre.
There. I said it.
There is SO much I want to see, and I hope and pray that when I see it, it will be good. And I mean GOOD. Not just ok (and we’ve all seen this sort of theatre) where it seems a bunch of actors put a show together that has little relevance for today, poor performances, weak direction or simply, flat and uninspiring.
Melbourne is rich with what seems to be countless theatre companies. After being in London for so long, and not really following what Melbourne was up to, I came back to a city that seems to be literally full to the brim with independent theatre makers – collectives of actors putting on their show with their brood of actors.
Many of them making interesting work, GOOD work. However, I noticed my resistance when I saw two very different pieces of theater one week – an INCREDIBLE piece of theatre and a below average one. I’m aware that it’s my taste that determines this, but even the disparity in the ticket cost was not indicative of the quality of the show (nor should it be, but it highlighted my realisation).
I am happy to pay to see any show, and know there is an element of gamble in whether I think it will be GOOD or not. The resistance comes when I want to see the show and am happy to pay but bear witness to a theatrical atrocity then mourn the loss of 2 hours spent in frustration at the work I am seeing. And I don’t just include independent work here, but big budget, professional level theatrical work that just doesn’t cut it for me.
What do you resist most?
What would happen if you didn’t resist it?
How would that change your day-to-day life?
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